Life in general is a funny thing indeed. I feel I have before me several cross roads. I am trying to keep a job at texas road house (which I feel I may be meetin with limited success). So what if i fail at this attempt. I will not have a job and thus make less money and thus will not be able to marry a certain some one in the time frame I would like. Now this to me would be a great tragedy. So if I fail is it Gods will? I suppose I may being running into a problem with the practicallity of not knowing whether I believe in determinism (providence) or if God leaves some things to chance. How do you opperate under either of these assumptions? If I fail is it my choice of not working hard enough at studying the menu? Was it God's will? Is is mere chance? Then what of the consiquences? Am I not suppose to marry liz as soon as I want to? Or is the choice of the time frame of that choice totally up to liz and me?

.....and another unrelated question? Is it wise to poor out my deepest concerns over the vast bill board of cyber space for all to see, or for no one to see.